Love did not create this. I loved saying that when ever I felt my fears rise up today. It was interesting as I drove past my ex's apartment(like I do every time I go into work) and as I felt that fear and anger pop up, I replaced the thoughts in my mind with "Love did not create this". But then I had to think. Did love create this? So I got to thinking about how I thought that's what it was, but there popped up an underlying cause. The fear of being alone and having no one to depend on but myself. Love did not create this.
What was my fear. Going out in the kayak today with Will, the most experienced kayaker. Fear of failing, or falling out, looking like an idiot, or messing up.
How did it feel to use my affirmation. It felt great. Right before I tried to get in my boat I took a moment to say it. It felt good to have that there with me.
How did my energy shift. I got a wave of courage and positiveness. I got in the boat far better than yesterday and I was less scared of messing up and instead asked more questions.
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